"Fearless is not the absence of fear. It’s not being completely unafraid. To me, Fearless is having fears. Fearless is having doubts, Lots of them. To me, it’s living in spite of those things that scare you to death. It’s falling madly in love again, even though you’ve been hurt before. It’s getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again… even though every time you’ve tried before you’ve lost it. It’s fearless to have faith that someday things will change. It’s having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can’t breathe without them. I think it’s fearless to fall for your best friend, even though he’s in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they’ll never stop doing, I think it’s fearless to stop believing them. It’s fearless to say “you’re NOT sorry” and walk away. I think love someone despite what people think is fearless. I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is fearless. Letting go is fearless then moving on and being alright…that’s fearless. But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charming and happily ever after. Because I think love is fearless" - Taylor Swift

I love Taylor Swift
If you haven't heard heard her new album, go out and get it.
Every song has AT LEAST one amazing quote in it that can relate to everyone's life

FEARLESS-  I wonder if you know i'm trying so hard not to get caught up now. But you're just so cool, run your hands through your hair absentmindedly making me want you
FIFTEEN - Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you you're gonna believe them
LOVE STORY-  Romeo save me they're trying to tell me how to feel. This love is difficult but it's real
HEY STEPHEN -  as we walked we were talking and i didn't say half the things i wanted to, of all the girls tossing rocks at your window i'll be the one waiting there even when it's cold....... AND...... i've been holding back this feeling so i've got some things to say to you. I seen it all so i thought but  i never seen nobody shine the way you do
WHITE HORSE - Cause i'm not a princess, this aint a fairytale i'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet, lead her up the stairwell........ AND........maybe i was Naive got lost in your eyes and never really had a chance
YOU BELONG WITH ME - If you could see htat i'm the one who understands you been here all along, so why can't you see you beling with me
BREATHE - And we know its never simple, never easy never a clean break no one here to save me, you've the only thing i know like the back of my hand and i can't breathe without you, but i have to
TELL ME WHY - you could write a book on how to ruin someones perfect day
YOU'RE NOT SORRY - i might believe you if i didn't know could've love you all my life if you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
THE WAY I LOVED YOU - He can't see the smile i'm faking and my heart's not breaking cause i'm not feeling anything at all
FOREVER & ALWAYS - i hold onto the night you looked me in the eye and told me you loved me, were you just kidding casue it seems to me this thing is break down
THE BEST DAY -  i know you were on my side even when i was wrong
CHANGE - And its a sad picture , the final blow hits you somebody else gets what you wanted again, you know its all the same, another time and place repeating history and you're getting sick of it

apparently i'm not allowed to ever get the guy

Mother Nature Are You For Real. Snow Already.




I DON"T OWN BOOTS YET

So yesterday me jess and lauren went boxing day shopping at sherway. it was complete madness like it took 20 min to find a parking spot. then we actually had to wait in line for stores, like abercrombie, roots etc. We ended up seeing paul, casey and josh in line for Abercrombie. Anyways i got two shirts from there and then a sweatshirt from roots cause everything was 50% off. Then i called my parents cause it was 3:30 and i was supposed to be home at 4, to see if they would pick me up on the way to my grandpas because jess and lauren were still shopping. My dad was a dick about it and started bitching at me, so i called my moms cell and she said it was fine.
So i went to my grandpas and had dinner and opened christmas presents. I got pirates2 dvd, 2 cds, a couple books and random other things. Then we came home and watched Step up which was amazing.


Today i was gonna see if anyone wanted to go skating, but instead i'm going to oakville place to look for semi dresses, and then going to see the Holiday with my mom, sister, aunt, and a bunch of family friends. its a tradition to do it every christmas. 

I can't describe my feelings right now, which is why i haven't posted in a while. 
My life is confusing without really being confusing. 

I think its because i feel like don't 'fit in' anymore. Everyone seems to have their "Bestfriend", meg and chloe, jess and lauren,and i don't have anyone. Which is hard because I don't have anyone to help me out with problems anymore, I can't trust anyone anymore. People i thought i could trust, other people said that i really shouldn't.  It seems like i'm choosing to tell people i'm not as close with; my problems instead of my close friends. I'm not sure why, maybe its because i feel like my close friends judge everything i say and do.




You should really learn to hide your facial expressions better when your talking to me. If you have something to say to me, just come out and say it instead of writing it on a piece of paper and showing the person next to you